This is What it Feels Like to Have COVID!
February 2, 2021
You are COVID positive! Those are four words I kept praying to god that I would never hear. You don’t want to hear that you have this horrible virus because you immediately feel helpless. At this moment I am so sick that it’s hard to barely keep my head up. I struggle with shortness of breath to the point of having coughing fits. There is nothing more terrifying than not being able to breathe. I can’t tell you how scared I am. So this is how it became bad. I was feeling fine up until this past weekend when I thought I was coming down with yet another sinus infection. However, by Sunday I noticed my chest beginning to hurt and it was becoming harder to breathe. Climbing the stairs to take a shower became a chore and I felt miserable. By today I was definitely dragging and struggling to catch my breath so I contacted my bosses who had me once again get the COVID tests. Well an hour later they called back and told me the results were positive and my stomach dropped. I then struggled to reach my family doctor who put me on a steroid for my lungs and an inhaler. However, I immediately felt horrible. After all I have no idea when I first ended up with this and I have already exposed a few people. A few people who are very angry with me but like I said you have no way of knowing you have it until you have the symptoms.
February 3, 2021
Feel worse today than I did the other day. I feel so weak and run down. Getting to the bathroom is a challenge and when I tried climbing the stairs to get into a hot shower it was all I could do to keep myself steady. I have never felt so awful in my entire life. My son is now home on quarantine and he isn’t making it any easier on me. He has highly functioning autism and ADHD so he’s not good at behaving and doesn’t really understand what is happening exactly. So I struggled to get him to clean up after himself and to pick up his garbage and run the vacuum because I can’t. It’s a struggle to breathe at times and so frustrating.
February 4, 2021
My mother and brother are now in quarantine of course thankfully they were able to get my inhaler before they had to keep themselves locked up. My dad stopped in at the grocery store for me and got me stocked up on juice and jello and thankfully had his masks on when he dropped them off. Without my family I have no idea what I would do. They have tried to help me out the best they can. Tomorrow my bosses will call to see if I am ready to go back to work because I work in the healthcare field and after so many days they want to know if you are well enough to go back to work and I most certainly am not feeling well enough to go back to work. Heck I am still short of breath and feeling weak. Even when I do start to improve I have sanitized everything down because my son will be on quarantine until February 16 so in order for my dad to even come in and help take care of him things have to be wiped down. I feel like I am living in a pig pen and that makes me feel so ashamed but what can you do when you are too sick to even move?
February 5, 2021
There are times in your life when you wish you were a kid again so your mother could take care of you. Believe you me that time is now. It hurts to get up and walk to the bathroom and my lungs ache so bad that I find myself going into a horrible coughing fit. However, I keep getting myself up because I have been told that you have to get up and move in order to get better and get the fluid out of your lungs. I pray for this horrible agony to come to an end so I can breathe again and so I can get the energy to clean up my house. At some point next week I have to go back to work and in order for my dad to come and sit with my son who will still be on quarantine things will need to be washed, sanitized and garbage picked up. Not to mention I have dishes that need done and a bathroom sink backed up. Yes it sucks to be sick and it sucks more than anything to have COVID. However, I am not about to let this beat me down. I will continue to fight this with every ounce of my being.
